The Serenity Prayer is one of my favorites. The first passage gets me every time. ” God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.” I hold on to this prayer when I’m down as a remainder. Growing up the only child to a single parent already knowing that I was unloved due to the absence of my father made me insecure at a young age. Childhood should be fun not full of self doubt. As I grew older I found myself trying to transform myself into something perfect. I was rather skinny and odd shaped and the boys in high school always reminded me of it. I wasn’t the popular girl, the rich girl, or the prettiest girl I was just quiet Ebonie. One thing I had that no one could take from me was the love of music. My first songs were trash but the thrill I got attempting to make them meant everything to me. Music was my special thing that made me confident. When I performed I turned into a different person. During my last two years in high school social media started to take off. My first site I joined was Tagged. I noticed early how social media would impact us. Today I am saddened by the standard people feel they have to live by and look like. So many beautiful people are changing the beauty they already have to look like someone else. Word on the street is I have to have a fat ass, long colorful hair, fake boobs that look up to the heavens and huge fake eyelashes. Let’s not forget designer clothes and bags and random trips to Dubai. I’m here to tell you that being yourself and loving all of you counting your flaws is the most powerful thing you can do. It took me years to really fall in love with myself .I had long talks with God daily to break that spirit of not feeling good enough. 10 years ago I wouldn’t leave the house without looking like a million bucks today I feel pretty no matter what I have on. For the first time in years I started wearing my real hair and not using makeup daily. I’ve never felt so free in my life. I may get a lot of compliments now about my physical but that’s not what makes me confident. I didn’t fall in love with my looks it’s my skills that make me the shit. Have you ever just thought about how good you do something? I have so much pride in my work ethic, skills, personality, positivity, and eagerness to learn. The reason for this blog entry is to remind you of how great you are. Take some time to lift yourself up and encourage yourself to be the best you. As always Let’s Do This Baby.
